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Character: Constantin d'Orsay
Canon: Greedfall
Canon Point: midgame, but before he gets magicked into a coma and almost dies
CRAU, Canon AU: nope
Character age: 26ish
Canon Abilities/Powers: Nothing at all!
What is their greatest negative emotion towards an object, situation, or person in their past?: A whole big mess of negativity directed primarily at his father; a lot of spite, a lot of anger and resentment, and a healthy (not really) dollop of guilt and shame and just general upset on top. Constantin is his father's second son by his second wife, and his father has resented him and treated him poorly since he was a child, when his older half-brother the heir was murdered under suspicious circumstances. This was not Constantin's doing, as he was indeed a child, but it has only compounded the other things his father is disappointed in him for: not being a good heir in turn, not behaving properly for a prince, never being quite good enough to please dear old dad, etc. Constantin in turn has absorbed this negativity and responded to it in equal parts acting out and desperately trying to please and prove himself ever since. The big ball of negativity towards his father has ballooned out since youth to infect basically all of his relationships; he assumes by default that people aren't going to treat him well, especially given that his mother also has treated him poorly as a tool for political gain and his father's court tends to poison and backstab each other on the regular. Constantin as a result is a very sad and lonely little man who wants to be appreciated and respected and loved, but has thus far only ever had one person (his cousin) who has cared about him as a person at all. Constantin's negativity towards his father is directed both in- and outward, in this way, and permeates basically everything he does.
A secondary negative emotion that is worth mentioning though not as significant is his incredible fear of death: he's nearly died from an incurable plague on screen in game, and it's implied he's been poisoned at least once before, and it really messes him up for a significant amount of time. Like, full on despair, throwing tantrums in fear, losing the will to go on almost immediately when he gets the news because he's been telling himself up until that point that he's not dying, his plague symptoms are just, maybe, food poisoning! This has compounded on how much death he's seen/experienced, considering his brother was murdered when he was young and his father's court is a den of backstabbing vipers. It's a negative emotion that just kind of follows him around.
How aware are they of this negative emotion, and how do they act on it in canon?: Very aware indeed! To the point that he talks about it often, and with the forced casual air of someone who cares very, very much about his father's opinion and the mess it's made of him over the years but who cannot possibly admit it out loud. At the same time he comments on wishing his father could be implicated in things like kidnapping a child, the duality of which basically informs Constantin's relationships with anyone he perceives to be against him; desperately, he wants to gain others' approval, but if he gets one whiff of dislike his temper flares and it's hard to convince him otherwise. He knows very well that he's like this and that it all goes back to his father, but he tends to bottle it up and dismiss it for the most part, preferring to maintain a positive attitude as if none of that bad stuff bothers him at all! Not him! He's just fine! Once he's able to physically put an ocean between himself and his father, which is right after the prologue of the canon, he's able to act on his pure daddy issues with just subtle jabs and "no-I'm-not-bothered-who's-bothered?" type comments when asked if his parents have even written to him at all (they have not). It's the permeates-all-spaces aspect of it that he acts on, unconsciously or not; he'll snap at people harshly for no good reason or insult ambassadors he perceives to be treating him the way his father did, etc. He's aware of it and he has a bad temper he'll act on without guilt if he's pressed, but luckily he's not pressed most of the time when literally removed from his father's house.
And as for the other one, the death fear thing, he's super aware of that and reacts to it by pretending he's fine and then panicking at the drop of a hat, as discussed. He'll do anything to survive including but not limited to participate in rituals to talk to mysterious ancient deities who do not want him there? It's a Necessity, of course.
What is their greatest virtue?: Despite the Big Depression and extremely critical distrust of others, Constantin does earnestly want to be good to other people and do right by them. He's a governor of a fledgling city, and the position is equally important to him as an opportunity to make something great of said city as it is a chance to really stick it to his father from an ocean away; he cares about people, particularly on an individual level, and has a big bleeding heart especially when it comes to children and the downtrodden. This is projecting; he was a sad child, so sad children get him right in the heart, and the same for the downtrodden and suffering. He's genuinely trying to do the best he can at his job of governing the city, even stopping his earlier coping habits of drinking and partying too much to do the actual work properly. He gets bored, yes, because he's restless and wants for adventure, but he's highly dedicated to providing some kind of service to the people by the means he has as governor. Outside of the government context, the people he does put his trust and investment in are in it for the long haul; the easiest example is his cousin, whom Constantin would do anything for, no questions asked, unconditionally. When he makes a genuine connection he is loyal and dedicated to a definite fault, particularly because he tends to act outside his means if not gently kept in check, but if unwavering loyalty and unconditional dedication to a person/place are virtuous at all, he has that one in spades.
How aware are they of their virtue, and how do they act on it in canon?: This one he is less aware of than his persistent negativity, if mostly because people don't point it out to him as much as they point out whenever he does something wrong. He wants to be a loyal, dedicated, hardworking person; he wants very much to be a person who is admired, who can do right by the handful of people willing to do right by him, but he doesn't quite believe himself capable of it. He's dependent on outside evidence for this type of thing-- to be told that he's done good, that he's appreciated and acknowledged, etc-- so without that confirmation from an external source, he just tries his best out into the ether and hopes that he's doing something right for somebody. It's not quite a lack of confidence, he has confidence, but it's an inability to know for sure, without being told directly, that he's done well. So while he is aware of his wants and needs to be a good person who helps others and so on, and he does act on it through helping the people of his city and accepting his cousin unconditionally (even after troubling family secrets are revealed and, in the past, when said cousin was shunned by their family's social circle for physical differences), he doesn't act on it... totally aware of his own virtue? A little bit half and half.
Items: Three potted plants.
Samples: a cool toplevel, and a whole lotta words
Special Notes: nada
Age: 29
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Character: Constantin d'Orsay
Canon: Greedfall
Canon Point: midgame, but before he gets magicked into a coma and almost dies
CRAU, Canon AU: nope
Character age: 26ish
Canon Abilities/Powers: Nothing at all!
What is their greatest negative emotion towards an object, situation, or person in their past?: A whole big mess of negativity directed primarily at his father; a lot of spite, a lot of anger and resentment, and a healthy (not really) dollop of guilt and shame and just general upset on top. Constantin is his father's second son by his second wife, and his father has resented him and treated him poorly since he was a child, when his older half-brother the heir was murdered under suspicious circumstances. This was not Constantin's doing, as he was indeed a child, but it has only compounded the other things his father is disappointed in him for: not being a good heir in turn, not behaving properly for a prince, never being quite good enough to please dear old dad, etc. Constantin in turn has absorbed this negativity and responded to it in equal parts acting out and desperately trying to please and prove himself ever since. The big ball of negativity towards his father has ballooned out since youth to infect basically all of his relationships; he assumes by default that people aren't going to treat him well, especially given that his mother also has treated him poorly as a tool for political gain and his father's court tends to poison and backstab each other on the regular. Constantin as a result is a very sad and lonely little man who wants to be appreciated and respected and loved, but has thus far only ever had one person (his cousin) who has cared about him as a person at all. Constantin's negativity towards his father is directed both in- and outward, in this way, and permeates basically everything he does.
A secondary negative emotion that is worth mentioning though not as significant is his incredible fear of death: he's nearly died from an incurable plague on screen in game, and it's implied he's been poisoned at least once before, and it really messes him up for a significant amount of time. Like, full on despair, throwing tantrums in fear, losing the will to go on almost immediately when he gets the news because he's been telling himself up until that point that he's not dying, his plague symptoms are just, maybe, food poisoning! This has compounded on how much death he's seen/experienced, considering his brother was murdered when he was young and his father's court is a den of backstabbing vipers. It's a negative emotion that just kind of follows him around.
How aware are they of this negative emotion, and how do they act on it in canon?: Very aware indeed! To the point that he talks about it often, and with the forced casual air of someone who cares very, very much about his father's opinion and the mess it's made of him over the years but who cannot possibly admit it out loud. At the same time he comments on wishing his father could be implicated in things like kidnapping a child, the duality of which basically informs Constantin's relationships with anyone he perceives to be against him; desperately, he wants to gain others' approval, but if he gets one whiff of dislike his temper flares and it's hard to convince him otherwise. He knows very well that he's like this and that it all goes back to his father, but he tends to bottle it up and dismiss it for the most part, preferring to maintain a positive attitude as if none of that bad stuff bothers him at all! Not him! He's just fine! Once he's able to physically put an ocean between himself and his father, which is right after the prologue of the canon, he's able to act on his pure daddy issues with just subtle jabs and "no-I'm-not-bothered-who's-bothered?" type comments when asked if his parents have even written to him at all (they have not). It's the permeates-all-spaces aspect of it that he acts on, unconsciously or not; he'll snap at people harshly for no good reason or insult ambassadors he perceives to be treating him the way his father did, etc. He's aware of it and he has a bad temper he'll act on without guilt if he's pressed, but luckily he's not pressed most of the time when literally removed from his father's house.
And as for the other one, the death fear thing, he's super aware of that and reacts to it by pretending he's fine and then panicking at the drop of a hat, as discussed. He'll do anything to survive including but not limited to participate in rituals to talk to mysterious ancient deities who do not want him there? It's a Necessity, of course.
What is their greatest virtue?: Despite the Big Depression and extremely critical distrust of others, Constantin does earnestly want to be good to other people and do right by them. He's a governor of a fledgling city, and the position is equally important to him as an opportunity to make something great of said city as it is a chance to really stick it to his father from an ocean away; he cares about people, particularly on an individual level, and has a big bleeding heart especially when it comes to children and the downtrodden. This is projecting; he was a sad child, so sad children get him right in the heart, and the same for the downtrodden and suffering. He's genuinely trying to do the best he can at his job of governing the city, even stopping his earlier coping habits of drinking and partying too much to do the actual work properly. He gets bored, yes, because he's restless and wants for adventure, but he's highly dedicated to providing some kind of service to the people by the means he has as governor. Outside of the government context, the people he does put his trust and investment in are in it for the long haul; the easiest example is his cousin, whom Constantin would do anything for, no questions asked, unconditionally. When he makes a genuine connection he is loyal and dedicated to a definite fault, particularly because he tends to act outside his means if not gently kept in check, but if unwavering loyalty and unconditional dedication to a person/place are virtuous at all, he has that one in spades.
How aware are they of their virtue, and how do they act on it in canon?: This one he is less aware of than his persistent negativity, if mostly because people don't point it out to him as much as they point out whenever he does something wrong. He wants to be a loyal, dedicated, hardworking person; he wants very much to be a person who is admired, who can do right by the handful of people willing to do right by him, but he doesn't quite believe himself capable of it. He's dependent on outside evidence for this type of thing-- to be told that he's done good, that he's appreciated and acknowledged, etc-- so without that confirmation from an external source, he just tries his best out into the ether and hopes that he's doing something right for somebody. It's not quite a lack of confidence, he has confidence, but it's an inability to know for sure, without being told directly, that he's done well. So while he is aware of his wants and needs to be a good person who helps others and so on, and he does act on it through helping the people of his city and accepting his cousin unconditionally (even after troubling family secrets are revealed and, in the past, when said cousin was shunned by their family's social circle for physical differences), he doesn't act on it... totally aware of his own virtue? A little bit half and half.
Items: Three potted plants.
Samples: a cool toplevel, and a whole lotta words
Special Notes: nada